combinations.
secondary three.
pffffft

tomorrow's the deadline for the submision of the class combinations. sometimes i just wonder why everyone's different. i mean, look at those clever ones. they get a wider range of choices. they don't have to let the school consider whether they are eligible to take a particular subject. they're able to choose for themselves. look at the numbers i got. huge. pffffft. so much for being a chair who has f-ing grades. thank you very much.

God has reasons for making things the way it is. who knows, there may be other things that God wants me to realise about myself. who knows God wants to show me that life isn't only about results, that life isn't only about the ability of your brains to work. i guess every reason leads back to appreciating life. i'll have to learn to appreciate my strengths and my disabillities. and i'll have to know that there are people who are way better than me, and not as fortunate as me; in any aspects of life.

i guess getting into which class next year does not really matter right now. it's whether or not i'll be able to keep up with the cohort. it's whether or not i'm willing to discipline myself to go an extra mile to prove that i could work better than i've progressed. i guess all these strengths are the most important part when going through phases of life, phases of difficulties.

it smacks me very hard after i got the results. either i've been too complacent, or i'm just blessed with a brain that just, well, isnt as good as the others. but like what ustaz said in class, "prayers could not come by itself. you have to work for it." well i guess there's so much in life that i've yet to discover.

life is something that enables you to build up your strength along the way. it prepares you to the challenges that you'll have to face in the future. cause you'll be strong enough to overcome it with your bravery and your patience.

ramadhan is coming to an end. something in me worries about it.
please, God, don't make this the last time i get to experience this month.
i've discovered so many things life is about in this month. i don't want this faith to leave me. cause it's just what i hold on to right now.




ANYWAY!,
I KNOW HOW TO ANYAM KETUPAT ALREADY! :D
happpyyyyyyyyy!

i am 14 years and 9 months old today!
a new gift planted in me! (: